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This is the last post before exam. 15 days later, it will be my first paper for Circuit Analysis, the subject which I have the least confidence in and the lecturer said it's always the killer paper. KILLER PAPER leh.. =( It will then be 15 days of torture, perspiration and fighting, and the war will end on 30 Nov.
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That time I called QH and asked him a maths question. He gave me an answer in less than 5 seconds. To be exact, it’s less than 3 seconds, but it took him 2 more seconds to get over the shock from what I asked.
The 2-word answer is “Trigo formula”. And it was followed by a long “orh” from me. Haiz. Where’s my basics? *shake head*
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可以在课余的时间偶然碰见，
可以嘘寒问暖，
可以不必计较谁先主动打招呼，
可以知道对方别来无恙，
已经是种简单的缘分。

所以，

我就是喜欢这种简单的缘分。 =)
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True enough, it's very hard to find someone to confide in nowadays. In the university, everyone is busy. No one will take the effort of asking "how are you lately?" I couldn't blame them because even if they asked, I wouldn't tell them how exactly I feel or what exactly I'm going through.

The reason is simple: They don't understand me and they don't bother to.

I mean at this stage when exams are coming, who will bother to sit down and chat and get to know more about one another? Then when exams are over, ya, I will find my own friends and they will find their own friends. Haiz. It's sad, but that's uni life. Correct?

So upset, so tired, so helpless, so lost. Feel like breaking down, in fact broke down a few times, but tears don't help, do they?

No more secret-sharing, no more jokes to laugh about, no more time for one another.
Friends are only friends. So don't say you have no friends until you see me.. I'm the one who's alone k..

Sometimes I really blame myself for being easily softheartened. I should have turned down the requests for favours from friends, but yet I agreed to help even though there's no obligation for me to do so.
I'm there to help others, but who's there to help me?

Shouldn't have spend time helping people, 偏偏我就是良心过意不去。

That time people knocked my door and asked for donations. I donated $4 and after that I realised I didn't have money left for myself. Haiz.. 我是不是心太软了？
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I like to appear offline in the msn when I don't feel like chatting.
I like to set as busy when I'm really busy doing my work or to show people that I'm there, but may not reply. It's true that I may not reply to some people or just give very short replies. But there are some people whom I will always talk to them, no matter how busy I am. Hmm.. people like SF, Kelly, Daphne, and some friends in school.
I like to set as away when I'm really away or when I'm free to chat, but may not reply too. I'll only reply to some whom I feel like talking to.

WY is different. I will chat with her no matter what. Can even online just to talk to her, even when I'm appearing offline. =) She's my best friend what.. that's why.. =)
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That time people asked me to whom I 日久生情 with? Well, to anyone also can 日久生情 right? =)

女人必须要有矜持。But whatever hints we drop, the men don't get it.
难道真的要放下矜持，承认喜欢对方吗？唉。
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A follow-up on the songlist. Would like to include Kangta's Last Summer Night (or Late Summer Night). It's a Korean song and it's not difficult. I know the lyrics myself.. =)
Anyone who can sing it well, hmm....
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Chatted with WY on msn. Talking about exams, school life, and we already decided what to do right after my exam.. haha.. Hope she and JK will be together for a long long long long time bah, since she said JK is a good man which I still doubt. Haha.. Cause she said I have to pray for a good man to come by. Haiz.. This world still got good man meh? Maybe I never come across any bah.. Already given up hope on that.. Far too disappointed.. But it's ok.. I can still be alone.. wandering.. wondering.. I'm always alone right? Haiz..
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I miss going to Changi Airport, miss going to Orchard, miss eating Swensons, miss wearing skirts and earrings, miss being talkative, miss suaning people, miss the behaviour which I can't use it in school..miss a lot of things..

Can't even go to see Sheng Jie when he's coming soon, can't fetch him from airport..

Can't spend quality time with my friends..

Think I'm going to miss the movie "Sinking of Japan" and "Flushed Away" too..
Going to miss Tsuoyoshi and the animation.. =(

What else will I miss next?

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After exams, maybe there are some days which I will stay in hall for activities and shun bian update my blog.
I won’t be using msn that often but I will still check emails. Just drop me an email or sms or call me if you want to chat or meet or do whatever thing. 我一定奉陪到底。=)

Some people I’ll definitely meet. Some I rather ignore.

Overnight at Changi Airport to chat till sunrise.. Anyone interested? =D

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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
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