- Welcome -
A very warm welcome to all of you.
First of all, I have to admit that my new blogskin isn‘t that fantastic or cool as I expect it to be. But I wonder..
How many of your friends have blog? How many of those blogs are written in Chinese? How many of them used their own blogskin, rather than just "goped" from blogskins.com?
And lastly, how many of the blogs that you‘ve come across attracted your attention?
Well, I hope mine did. =)
The title of my blog is I'm Alone.. Wandering.. Wondering...
It's all about my own thoughts and experiences. So leave me a deep impression and I'll write about you. Some posts are written in Chinese just to eliminate a handful of people who are too lazy to read word for word or don't have a good grasp of Chinese.
You may click on the dots on the left panel to navigate.
1st dot. About me.
2nd dot. My posts.
3rd dot. Tagboard.
4th dot. Archives.
5th dot. Something to share.
If anytime you are lost in my blog, just go "home" and start all over again. =)
As I changed my blogskin on 21 July 2006, some past entries are written in some colours which you may not be able to see in this black background. Just highlight those words and you can see it clearer.
And if you think that you are wasting your time to read the stuff I've written (or you may call it crap), feel free to roll your mouse over to the top right hand corner of this window and click on the red button with a white cross. Thank you very much. =)
Good day and happy reading. =)
designer: Ah Xin (To think I actually call myself a designer.. -.- haha..)
New look : 21 July 2006
- About me..
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关于我。
我正在寻找一个人。
一个可以互相依靠的好友。
一个可以畅谈心事的知己。
一个可以同甘共苦的伴侣。
我喜欢听歌，喜欢聊天，喜欢发呆，喜欢睡觉。
喜欢刺激，喜欢旅行，喜欢冒险，喜欢说笑。
喜欢幻想，喜欢思考，喜欢拥抱，喜欢语出惊人。
喜欢娱乐朋友。喜欢被人疼爱。
喜欢以小小的举动感动别人。
我不喜欢食物太咸，太油，太甜。
不喜欢自己杞人忧天。
我怕电流，怕火，怕蟑螂。
怕被人背叛，怕自作多情。
怕生病，怕死亡。
害怕海洋的惊涛骇浪，却喜欢它无私的包容。
害怕悬崖的雄伟壮观，却惊叹它历尽沧桑。
害怕宇宙的无边无际，却迷上它散发的神秘感。
其实只是害怕迷失自己，害怕迷路，害怕那无助的感觉。
我是个容易亲近的人。
不信？
问那些主动跟我搭讪的路人。
问那个给我电话号码的陌生人。
我有老人缘。
和比我年纪大的人特别合得来。
我是个大胆的人。
偶尔做出令人想不到的事情。
我是只懒惰猫。
对无聊的事物一点兴趣也没有。
我是个幽默的人。
你有比我幽默吗？只有较量过才知道。
我有双重性格。
你喜欢怎样的人，我就是怎样的性格。
我非常独立。
所以家人对我放一百个心。
我是个守口如瓶的人。
是个让人倾诉心事的好对象。
我的要求很高。
所以当我称赞你的时候，你是真的很棒。
我的思想很成熟。
成熟到令人惊讶。
我容易心软。
但请不要欺负我。
我相信命运，相信缘分，相信报应。
相信一切只是命中注定。
死缠烂打也于事无补。
我是个幸运的女生。
但如果真的那么幸运，请让我遇到如意郎君。可以吗？
眼底星空，九月雨，直觉， 是你变了吗。
如果有哪个人可以把以上的歌唱得很好，我就嫁给他。
这样够简单吗？
希望能遇到可以照顾我的人。因为有时真的想什么都不理。
希望能遇到懂得欣赏我的人。因为我不想自己的付出白费了。
希望能遇到会逗我开心的人。因为有时心情真的很不愉快。
希望能遇到可以安慰我的人。因为人生真的需要鼓励。
我只希望有个人可以陪我。
如果你有耐心读到这里，我们肯定可以成为很好的朋友。
如果你愿意，请给我一个机会让我跟你聊天。我将让你对我念念不忘。
真的。
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如果有任何疑问，尽管问我。
你敢问，我就敢回答你。
哪怕有多尴尬。
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- Thought of the day -
" We'll never know how things will turn out to be.
They may turn out to be exactly what we want,
not necessary opposite."
~2:56:00 PM
I was looking through all the greeting cards I had received. Touched by all those touching contents.
Some promised me a greeting card every year.
Some promised me a present for every of my birthday.
Some promised me a card for every Christmas.
Some promised me friends forever.
And when they fail to do so, I’ll understand.
They have long forgotten that I was once their best friend.
Some sent me a card every year when I least expect it. (Thanks =) )
Some sent me the first card, and it was their last.
Some of the things which I waited for, they never arrive.
I called him to talk to him. I told him that I was hurt. I know he’ll make me feel better.
He told me this:
“ When the last time you received an sms from that person was more than a month ago,
When that person did nothing but forward smses to you,
When that person did not give you anything for your birthday, not even an sms,
When you didn't receive a card from that person for 2 consecutive years,
When you took the initiative to keep in contact with that person, but he or she never appreciate it,
It's time for you to forget about that person.
If that person doesn't care about this friendship, then why should you?
If you said you're hurt, you're just caring too much."
I felt worse after hearing him said that. I didn't want to believe what he said. I tried to rebutt him with every reason I can think of. But he only said one thing, " Friends are not part of your life, they ........" Yes, what he said was true, but I felt worse. He didn't make me feel better, I was more hurt. But I learnt a lot from him. Thanks. ( I dare not write out what he said because I'm afraid that I might affect more people.)
He continued to talk about something very realistic.
Too realistic that I frowned at the thought of it, that I have no choice but to agree, that I dare not write everything on my blog. ( He said he's going to write it for me, let's see if he posts it here. =\ )
WY said that "No life is a waste. The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking that we are alone." I told her that being alone is my choice to spend some quality time thinking about things. But later, I thought " It would be even sillier to think that I'm not alone when actually I am. How foolish of me." I'm alone. Always alone.
* I do not want to hear any comments for this post. Neither do I want to listen to any words of consolation like "You are not alone", "I'll be your listening ear", etc, of which none of it is true.
被欺骗太多次的人， 是不会再相信别人了。I'm sorry if I offended anyone. 我只是很难过。
愤怒化为悲伤，泪水只能往肚里吞。
Wandering.. Wondering.. .
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
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